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Slower Than a Dead Snail

7 Jul

It has been a long while since i updated this in some part because i have yet to complete another item off of my ever growing bucketlist and in some part because of my recent onslaught of depression.

It happens.

thats is why i started this project after all, to help fight off this life long horror that is the negativity of my life?

Allot has happend in a month, allot of things i never thought i would ever do.

I gave up school and am no longer trying for any kind of degree, I am accepting my failure. I am OPEN to going back but I have definately taken the semester off and will not even be able to consider going back until at least January. This is the first time ever in 7 years i have not attended. I have even taken summer semesters straight through. (I have excellent stamina)

I am deep in my eye balls in debt and am looking for a second job and possibley a third after that.

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I havent been reading my scriptures at all. OOPS. But honestly, it isnt like we all havent seen THAT coming from reading my previous blogs. I am still fighting the urge to drink coffee though (amazing as it is). I have the feeling that I will lose this fight. Funny how i never had any problem with it until now. haha.

Now just because I havent been successful in crossing off one of my bucketlist items doesnt mean I havent been half assing stuff.

I gave blood for my third time 🙂 Image

and i got this nifty zipper pull and another sticker for my ever growing collection.
Plus the usual sugar high from cookie overdose. It was different because i had to go alone and because they took from my right arm…and i kept overly using it by accident XD HAHA.

Since this last semester finished for me i have had ALLOT of time to do…well…nothing.

So naturally i did what i always do when i have nothing left to live for besides sleeping. I eat a truck load of junk food and draw cartoons.

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Which leads me to the half assed bucket list items:

1) Work on overcoming social anxiety

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 I left the house! That counts, right?

No, but really, I did stuff AND IT WAS SLIGHTLY SPONTANEOUS…for me anyways. I have this need to plan, which in part probably hinders me allot from doing things. I dont like surprises. I dont do them well, so when my friend askes me the day before to do see the july 1st canada day fireworks I surprised myself by saying yes. PLUS i worked that day, I never leave the house after work because i am usually EXHAUSTED. So yay me! They were really awesome. I have never been in town for Canada day before because usually i am shipped to my grandparents to baby sit everyone elses kids while they have a party. I am NOT good with kids and now they are to old to fall for the hide and seek trick, where they hide and Isit on the couch eating cookies pretending to look for them calling out every now in then “DRAT i really thought you were there!” or “I SEE MOVEMENT BEHIND THE _____”.

2) Write a Comic Book

(Which, as you know is a complete cop out because I am really just re-drawing my old one from highschool)

So here it is, Page 2 of “OMG: Quails and Ants”

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Well I think i got it all, I will keep you updated with the next thing I do! Even if it is all coming along at the pace of a dead snail.

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX

TheHappyLittleArtist

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Another Sexy Strike Off The List

28 May

Hello and welcome back to my epic journey of doable-ness!

I have been so swamped with volunteering and forgetting to read my book of mormon scriptures (im in helaman) that I keep putting off updating this blog. 😉 oops!

Now, i know i am not doing as great with my readings as i once was but I have proudly been able to avoid all forms of coffee and unallowed teas thus far 😀 MAJOR awesome, considering how coffee addicted i was before. Now i am simply Pepsi addicted ;D OOOOOPS AGAIN.

Unfortunately I havent been to church in…uh….several months now? DAAAAAAAANG I DONT EVEN REMEMBER WHEN I LAST WENT. Not my fault though :C I have to work to pay off my ever growing school debts. D: Which despite my owing of money to the ever greedy visa people, i have tithed 10% of every paycheque 🙂 (considering how money miserly i am…this is more of a miracle than the coffee thing)

However, one worse thing has come from me not going to church, and thats that my dad has also recently stoppped going. He just cant get into the swing of things without me there. I saw it coming.

This is one of the major reasons why I go to my ward rather than the youth ward (besides my anti social tendancies towards people my own age *troll face*)

The YSA missionaries still contact me though 🙂 which is awesome, as I have said before, this is the closest thing to church i get nowadays XD HAHAHA….ooooooh saaaaadness.

ANYWAYS.

Sometimes in my journey down this bucketlist i forget how amazing certain people have been in supporting me in it. Even when I myself forget exactly the things I have set out to do in order to complete my adventure.

And thus a very good friend took me along to play the ever important part of “the third wheel” with her and her man slave (hence forth refered to as “wallet”, thus is my current view of MANkind) to the Naughty but Nice Sex Show!

 In case some of you dont know what that is let me explain a little bit.

The city i live in has a local tradex where different events and traveling shows come to sell and entertain etc. (gun, shows, car shows etc).

The Taboo show is pretty much…the sex show XD haha. Now, why would i want to go to this show badly enough that i would put it on my bucketlist? Because i have never done it. Its that simple.

I have to admit though, it did not happen the way i had hoped

Despite the fact that i was exhausted from work that day and that i am so completely broke i am living off of dollar store crackers i still made the time to go and it became doubley important for me to go as a way to celebrate my friends bday 🙂

Unfortunately no one else from my usual posse’ wanted to 😦 so i was really sad about that, it would have been amazing to all go together. Oh well, i got to meet her new BF so that was an epic plus 🙂 good guy. good wallet.

I was very surprised by the lack of security when we walked in. I demanded to show my id to someone…but nooo one caaaaaaared.

And my friend thought i was a moron. But honesty is just how i roll ;D

But they seemed to have no problem TAKING MY 15 BUCKS FOR ENTRY. I’m sorry but thats insane for the lack of entertainment that was there…I suppose it was worth the check on my list though. HAHAHAHA PRIORITIES.

All over the dark interior of the building were booths selling all kinds of funky sex things. The wallet looked strangely excited…

There were all kinds of flavored this and that and more importantly COOORSETS. Freaking love corsets…but i did not love the price of them.

Luckily I was 5 dollars short to get a white and black polka dotted one i fell in love with or this blog may have had a completely different ending…with my in a neon pink wig and dancing in a cage or some shit like that XD.

AND YES. I WAS IMPRESSED BY THE CAGE DANCERS. It looked like fun, i would so do that.

There was also a stage and some strip shows which was interesting to watch…although my friends wallet was not sure if the large black cross dresser was a man or a woman. LOL. ooooh silly wallets. When in doubt, its always a man!

Overall it was fun, i got to see the booth a friend of mine told me she had worked before 🙂 that was awesome (although hella pricey 0-0 DAYUM) and my birthday girl buddy even tried one on :0 looked really god to, she was braver than me XD Sorry, but i think my fat ass would break the strings and then oops…even more debt XD LOL

Afterwards we went to see the gang at the clubhouse (aka their house lol). That was fun 🙂 it was nice to see them again, they have been so busy lately that we havent had time to hangout and get in trouble ;D

They live on this awesome piece of land that allows them to have TONS of animals. Chickens, dogs and a breeding ground OF KITTENS.

and we all know how i am not without my own kitten :C

Honestly, i have no idea if i remembered to fill you in on everything going on or not, i have been slowly getting this entry done over a period of 2 weeks or so XD HAHA

So if i forgot something i will mention it next time 🙂

as for other stuff, i am painting little by little and am actually starting to look into selling something…maybe….>.> its very nerve wracking to think about.

But as a friend suggested to me, i think online is the way to go, then i dont have to frame it, and framing is always half the cost of any piece.

I am looking at charging 20-50 dollars of it.

But unfortunately i have not been painting anything for my bucket list like i originally thought i would as a way to document…sooo the church painting remains as it was. (i hate doing archetecture.)

But i am doing my best to make time because (as predicted by many) once again the free time i thought i would have this summer has been filled up x20 by my inability to say “no thank you” to people in need XD OOOOOOPSY 😉

XoXoXoXoXo

TheHappyLittleArtist

p.s. on the Music side of things however, i have discovered the website that turns youtube videos into MP3’s 😀 I RECOMMEND THE YOUTUBE BAND KARMIN. AMAZINGNESS.

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Cupcake Cannibalism is a Tasty Death.

24 Apr

I have been eating so much junk lately that i think that i might be turning into a cupcake :/

…wait…is that a bad thing or a good thing?

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I am starting to get in the swing of things again when it comes to reading my scriptures! HUZZAH.

My bucket list stuff hasnt been going as smoothly as planned :C I have not had an opportunity to get to doing anything really…maybe i will work on page 2 of my comic tonight…that might be a good plan.

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I AM technically volunteering tomarrow 😀 although it is for my workplace again so I do not really count it. However, my next blood donation appointment is on the 1st of may (great way to start the month :D) So i am hoping i will be able to muster up the courage to ask if they are looking for volunteers :)!!! Two birds with one stone! HAHA

Also, i HAVE BEGUN WORKING ON A PAINTING SERIES 😀 Which falls under “Sell a painting” (or at least thats how i see it). I am hoping to get enough pieces together to be able to have my own gallery exhibition at the arts council in the next city over (i work for the one here, so it would be a conflict of interest).

The subject i am doing it on is craving and torture based on our lusting addiction to food. (as we all know by now…I have a serious problem with LOLZ)

>:D trust me its pretty damn evil.

…I should probably get to painting my bucket list stuff too come to think of it…oops….

I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW. I have this horrible habit of starting to much at one time. This is exactly why I NEVER finish anything and exactly why this list is absolutely necessary to improve my life…if…ya know..i actually finish it. HAHA. oi.

Drowning in half complete projects.

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

TheHappyLittleArtist

Maybe If There is Progress, There Will Be Confetti :o

13 Apr

Greetings possible stalkers!

SUMMER HAS ARRIVED and the weather has been glorious!!!!!!!

I have completed my finals and am looking forward to more bucketlist activities! I really lucked out this semester, my prof was sick on the day of our final critiques (which is like the art students version of an exam, except you have to stand up in front of your peers and fight tooth and nail in defence of your work for 20 minutes), so I DIDNT HAVE TO DO IT. BREW HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

And yes, I actually went “brewhahahahaha” and danced like a moron to the amusement of my classmates.

Then, i proceeded to write things like “YAY” on the white board and dash off with a friend to buy 10 loaves of bread.

Yup. My life in a nutshell right there. 😉

On the religious front…I have not been able to go to church unfortunately. My amazing workplace of amazingness has needed me to work full weekend shifts. WHICH I ADOOOORE TO NO END, especially during the summer when we are busiest. I love to meet and talk to new people about art and help to support our local talent. I am OVERLY passionate about it, some people I come across even notice how into it I am. HAHA….I hope thats a good thing…XD (crazyobsessedpersontype)

My scripture study, unfortunately has been lacking…and as for resisting the ambrosia which is coffee…does coffee crisp count? If so…I BLAME THE EASTER BUNNY.

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Last Saturday the missionaries visited my work again :). Once again while my trainee was unable to make it…i think she’s starting to think they dont exist. LOL.
They were funny, lining up to listen to an audio piece we have about the sexuality of fast food advertissing. HAHA. Unfortunately we got busy really fast and they left fairly quickely, probably so as to not feel as though they were bothering me at work lol. Which they never do, they are the only bit of church I get lately XD. Oi.

Moving on, i mentioned last post that i was able to take part in an arts rally/rock concert type thing. It was partially put on by my amazing painting teacher and she encouraged us all to take part by writing poems and attending. It was allot of fun but unfortunately it was held outside on the green…in freezing weather. Allot of people showed up and I was surprised by how many passer by’s stopped to listen on their way to class. We are not a very social university…but…that could be said for the entire town really…

What else, what else? It has been so long since i have updated you all I feel a little perplexed with going ons! HAHA

I have not seen my friends in a very long time. THEY HAVE ABANDONED ME >:C
I KNOW AT LEAST ONE OF YOU MUST READ THIS.
Oh well. Haters gonna hate. >:C

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Bucketlist wise, I have started page 2 today of my comic book and am trying to get people to go roller blading with me before our coastal weather decides it no longer wants to stay decent for me.

Also, I am attempting to get a group together to visit our local carnival type thing we have here called “Playland”. It has changed allot since I was last there, way back in grade 7 and I have been attempting to plan the trip for several years now. However, my friends hate fun and are not very accomodating to my needs (OBVIOUSLY 😉 ). HAHA. Maybe now with my bucketlist and all the amazing support they have been giving me as i try to cross off more stuff, we will make it. I hope so 😀 I love arcade games. HURRAY FOR PROGRESS.

 And with that I think you are pretty much all caught up.

It is weird to think that it has been one entire month since my cat passed away :C
It still feels like it only just happend. weird.

ANYWAYS have a happy Friday the 13th ;D (again…did you know we also had one this january???? SPOOOOKY)

Stay Lucky

XoXoXo

TheHappyLittleArtist

I Make Slowness Look DAMN Monocle-y!

25 Mar

My sincerest apologies for the not writing the past couple days but honestly..I havent been doing much of anything but working XD HAHA so i did not feel the need to update my progress on my doable bucketlist seeing as how…there has not been any. LOL

My days have been the same, got up at 5am, excersised, read scriptures, went to work.

My church missionaries visited me on friday. WHICH IS AWESOME, i havent seen them in a long time. I dont think they are typically supposed to visit you after baptism but it is always great to see them…especially since i have begun to work sundays and have not been able to attend church (sadness) RIGHT AFTER I BOUGHT A NEW CHURCH DRESS TOO!!!!. Figures.

Apparently they switched again, the Elder who confirmed me is still there though along with two others, one of which has only been on his mission for 2 weeks….BREW HAHAHAAHA. I must now scour my scriptures and find things to test him on >:D

They are all fun, super nice guys.

However, my list HAS been on my mind, dont think that with all this excitement *rolls eyes* that I have forgotten it, despite my turtle pace.

ImagePLUS its been warm and sunny outside lately so i think it is almost the time to start on “Roller blading around mill lake park”. (Which is quite an athletic endeavor since i cant roller blade very well…even though i love it HAHA)

But now to the point of this blog

Love

All my life i have NEVER EVER been interested in the opposite sex…or the same sex…or turtle sex while we are on the subject.

And to be honest I still have no real opinion on the matter.

I have never dated, never tried and probably only really been asked out once or twice in 23 years (one having been fairly recently, at the university)

How does this relate to my bucketlist? Well if you waited a minute i would tell you. Damn impatient readers…

It relates to the biggest, scariest and hardest item to mark off on my list. Being social/getting over social anxiety. Over the last couple months i have begun to think that maybe my lack of willingness to join in with the crowd is the contributing factor to my lack of interest.

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In addition, at this time there was…how can I say this? Inspiration? Insane oblivious sexyness? Yes. Lets stick with the last one, somehow it is inappropriately accurate…although my friends have other equally inappropriate names for it but…I want to keep this PG 13 (and yes, they were shocked when i told them).

It could have been lust rather than love (according to google there is a difference), but it was super fun while it lasted and it is partly the reason for me creating this list and wanting to become a fuller, better person.

AND it made me google allot of stuff, which led me to this article and inspiration for this blog. Once you get past all the weird funky religious stuff and get right down to the core point on understanding peoples personality types when it comes to how they love, it is actually quite interesting.

I think I am a “Wall Flower” type, what about you?

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOX

TheHappyLittleArtist

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Pft, Productivity is for Cthulhu’s

21 Mar

I DONT HAVE TO DO A MURAL PRINT.

Life goal in ultimate lazy achievment. COMPLETE. Take that productive society!!!!

Oh…why hello their faithful viewers 😀 nice to see there are so many of you. I am sure you are wondering “what the cthulhu is this kid talking about?”

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BEER FOR EVERYONE!!!!

Well, as you know by now, I am in an upper level Photo 4 class at my university (Film, not digital) and one of the requirments for the year was to print a 30″x40″ mounted mural print. The very thought of having to buy that much photosensitive paper made me cry…along with the 8 hours it would have taken to develop that beast. ECK.

*Ahem* Moving on….

I did my usual routine got up at 6am (slept in an hour. i DESERVED IT), did my workout, showed, drank my tea, and read my scriptures (as part of bucketlist item one’s requirement 🙂 ) and went to my photo class.

Then I went home and decorated my cats grave some more. I THINK THIS IS COMPLETELY HEALTHY…..shutup internet.

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Doesnt it look pretty?

Not much on the bucketlist happend unfortunately :/

But what I have been working on the most  is finding an opportunity to volunteer.

I would prefer if it was for a good cause, rather than just for a need for extra hands at a hockey event.

I did have something lined up with the epilepsy society but the EXACT day I was going to hand in my volunteer sheet my cat died and I fell into hopeless despair (which has now apparently turned into a hopeless obsession with garden aesthetics lol)

Maybe i will try the SPCA. 😀 I HAVE always wanted to do that, but I know that they demand allot more of you than just a weeks worth of good deeds. In fact, its something like a 3 month commitment, so perhaps in the summer if the positions dont fill up to fast. Any thoughts?

OH, I FORGOT. I did do some more bucketlist documenting last night, aka slightly worked on my painting of my church. But not enough that it would be a noticable difference for me to warrant posting a picture of it.

At the time I WAS attempting to do the homework that is due tomarrow….but instead sat for 4 hours in my studio, productively staring at a wall and then moved onto poking at my bucketlist painting for a good…5 minutes. BUT IT COUNTS!!!!

Which reminds me…I should get to my homework.

Off to stare at the walls some more! TTYL

TheHappyLittleArtist


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The Hills Are Alive With The Sounds Of…Rihanna?

17 Mar

My alarm didnt go off this morning! LUCKILY, I some how managed to wake up 2 hours before i had to leave for work and managed to do my work out, caffinate and read my scriptures (only a chapter though).

Things are not looking to good on the job front. But I wont give up! This is my dream job, I love to help and associate with artists and do my best to help the community while doing it. I get so many amazing opportunities and wonderful experiences through this, even if I do have to scrub toilet. HAHA. It can be really hard and unorganized at times, but thats part of the charm, problem solving on the spot is a unique challenge I seem to thrive in. Plus, I get to train a grade 12 student for her work experience. WHAT A SWEET HEART. Never complains, works hard…has caught on to my stupidity and addiction to caffeine easily…HAHAHA. That takes skill.

Anyways, I am sure you are not here to read about my day, so ONTO THE LIST.

Ongoing: “Commercial Fall Through” and “Music”

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As you can see, there have been some changes due to some recent unpleasant issues. (I just cant catch a break recently, now can I? XD)

I have removed “Be in a commercial“. The reason being that the opportunity fell through. I cant say much more than that unfortunately.

But I have replaced it with a couple of dandy alternatives (I am trying to make “dandy” cool again. is it working?) which are to to attend the “Naughty but Nice” taboo show at our local tradex (and laugh at all the tight ass picketers HAHAHAHA) and also go and see/feed the birds at the local Aviary. It was suggested to me at work today and sounds like allot of fun…so long as I dont get stabbed to death by an unusually sharp beak…

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With that bit of set back out of the way. Lets talk music!

As a child, my parental father figure shipped me off every summer to my parents up in the mountains and every time they would force me kicking and screaming to attend a proffessional musical summer school.

I HATED IT. I had liked music fine before attending but the competitive mothers and their satan spawned offspring completely ruined it for me. Since then I have been on this life long grudge against music and anything musical.

Which is to bad because I was supposedly, a super good singer when I was younger and even had an offer to be taught privately by one of the instructors but naturally by the time I was old enough to choose, I refused.

They taught a little of everything there, I was great with the singing, was a complete ham with the theatre, just followed along with the dancing, but when it came to instruments…well…let just say within the 7 years i attended….I took beginner keyboard 7 times. 😉 (I am quite proud of that inability)

Long story short, since then, when i had my ipod on…it was to listen to the news.

SO, I finally decided that holding a grudge this long had to be unhealthy so I have been trying my best to listen to a little music everyday, usually when i am changing in the morning (deciding what to wear is a long and tedious process you know which requires background music, for posing purposed.)

So far I have found, Owl City, Rihanna and Adele are to my liking.

SUGGESTIONS MUCHLY NEEDED.

Feel free to toss them over in the comments below (WARNING: Rap will be severely mocked)

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XoXoXoXo

DJ TheHappyLittleArtist.

Word to yo mama.