Tag Archives: death
Aside

Another Sexy Strike Off The List

28 May

Hello and welcome back to my epic journey of doable-ness!

I have been so swamped with volunteering and forgetting to read my book of mormonย scripturesย (im in helaman) that I keep putting off updating this blog. ๐Ÿ˜‰ oops!

Now, i know i am not doing as great with my readings as i once was but I have proudly been able to avoid all forms of coffee and unallowed teas thus far ๐Ÿ˜€ MAJOR awesome, considering how coffee addicted i was before. Now i am simply Pepsi addicted ;D OOOOOPS AGAIN.

Unfortunately I havent been to church in…uh….several months now? DAAAAAAAANG I DONT EVEN REMEMBER WHEN I LAST WENT. Not my fault though :C I have to work to pay off my ever growing school debts. D: Which despite my owing of money to the ever greedy visa people, i have tithed 10% of every paycheque ๐Ÿ™‚ (considering how money miserly i am…this is more of a miracle than the coffee thing)

However, one worse thing has come from me not going to church, and thats that my dad has also recently stoppped going. He just cant get into the swing of things without me there. I saw it coming.

This is one of the major reasons why I go to my ward rather than the youth ward (besides my anti social tendancies towards people my own age *troll face*)

The YSA missionaries still contact me though ๐Ÿ™‚ which is awesome, as I have said before, this is the closest thing to church i get nowadays XD HAHAHA….ooooooh saaaaadness.

ANYWAYS.

Sometimes in my journey down this bucketlist i forget how amazing certain people have been in supporting me in it. Even when I myself forget exactly the things I have set out to do in order to complete my adventure.

And thus a very good friend took me along to play the ever important part of “the third wheel” with her and her man slave (hence forth refered to as “wallet”, thus is my current view of MANkind) to theย Naughty but Nice Sex Show!

ย In case some of you dont know what that is let me explain a little bit.

The city i live in has a local tradex where different events and traveling shows come to sell and entertain etc. (gun, shows, car shows etc).

The Taboo show is pretty much…the sex show XD haha. Now, why would i want to go to this show badly enough that i would put it on my bucketlist? Because i have never done it. Its that simple.

I have to admit though, it did not happen the way i had hoped

Despite the fact that i was exhausted from work that day and that i am so completely broke i am living off of dollar store crackers i still made the time to go and it became doubley important for me to go as a way to celebrate my friends bday ๐Ÿ™‚

Unfortunately no one else from my usual posse’ wanted to ๐Ÿ˜ฆ so i was really sad about that, it would have been amazing to all go together. Oh well, i got to meet her new BF so that was an epic plus ๐Ÿ™‚ good guy. good wallet.

I was very surprised by the lack of security when we walked in. I demanded to show my id to someone…but nooo one caaaaaaared.

And my friend thought i was a moron. But honesty is just how i roll ;D

But they seemed to have no problem TAKING MY 15 BUCKS FOR ENTRY. I’m sorry but thats insane for the lack of entertainment that was there…I suppose it was worth the check on my list though. HAHAHAHA PRIORITIES.

All over the dark interior of the building were booths selling all kinds of funky sex things. The wallet looked strangely excited…

There were all kinds of flavored this and that and more importantly COOORSETS. Freaking love corsets…but i did not love the price of them.

Luckily I was 5 dollars short to get a white and black polka dotted one i fell in love with or this blog may have had a completely different ending…with my in a neon pink wig and dancing in a cage or some shit like that XD.

AND YES. I WAS IMPRESSED BY THE CAGE DANCERS. It looked like fun, i would so do that.

There was also a stage and some strip shows which was interesting to watch…although my friends wallet was not sure if the large black cross dresser was a man or a woman. LOL. ooooh silly wallets. When in doubt, its always a man!

Overall it was fun, i got to see the booth a friend of mine told me she had worked before ๐Ÿ™‚ that was awesome (although hella pricey 0-0 DAYUM) and my birthday girl buddy even tried one on :0 looked really god to, she was braver than me XD Sorry, but i think my fat ass would break the strings and then oops…even more debt XD LOL

Afterwards we went to see the gang at the clubhouse (aka their house lol). That was fun ๐Ÿ™‚ it was nice to see them again, they have been so busy lately that we havent had time to hangout and get in trouble ;D

They live on this awesome piece of land that allows them to have TONS of animals. Chickens, dogs and a breeding ground OF KITTENS.

and we all know how i am not without my own kitten :C

Honestly, i have no idea if i remembered to fill you in on everything going on or not, i have been slowly getting this entry done over a period of 2 weeks or so XD HAHA

So if i forgot something i will mention it next time ๐Ÿ™‚

as for other stuff, i am painting little by little and am actually starting to look into selling something…maybe….>.> its very nerve wracking to think about.

But as a friend suggested to me, i think online is the way to go, then i dont have to frame it, and framing is always half the cost of any piece.

I am looking at charging 20-50 dollars of it.

But unfortunately i have not been painting anything for my bucket list like i originally thought i would as a way to document…sooo the church painting remains as it was. (i hate doing archetecture.)

But i am doing my best to make time because (as predicted by many) once again the free time i thought i would have this summer has been filled up x20 by my inability to say “no thank you” to people in need XD OOOOOOPSY ๐Ÿ˜‰

XoXoXoXoXo

TheHappyLittleArtist

p.s. on the Music side of things however, i have discovered the website that turns youtube videos into MP3’s ๐Ÿ˜€ I RECOMMEND THE YOUTUBE BAND KARMIN. AMAZINGNESS.

I’m So Skilled, i Dont Even Have To Know Whats Going On!

10 May

It has just come to my attention through a self epiphany, that i have somewhat completed a Bucketlist item this afternoon!

AND I ALMOST HINDERED IT UNKNOWINLGY! ย *epic facepalm moment*

Figures.

Okay, okay, like always i should explain what exactly went on. HAHA (wouldnt it be mean if i didnt? XD)

So a week+ ago a friend of mine whom i knew in highschool and alittle but in university came up facebooked me and said she loved the cartoon i drew for my timeline cover (see below):Image

She wanted me to make a small comic for her boyfriends birthday. Lucky for her, I just happend to be on my only week off in a school year, just before summer semester started and I ALWAYS end up taking art requests from friends etc. (some vacation eh? XD…come to think of it i still owe a few people from a year ago…*innocent face*)

Well I took on her challenge! And completed my goal for completion in record time! (I was impressed with myself ;D it had several frames and each frame can take me 4-7 hours).

I showed her the file and besides having to make an alternate ending (turned out way better) she loved it ๐Ÿ™‚

AND WANTED ME TO PRINT IT OFF FOR HER ๐Ÿ™‚
Which is a completely new concept for me, but gave me the control needed to epic and alter pixels to print the clearest pic possible. Which, is preferable than having anyone else try to do it. Saves allot of headaches sometimes XD

i got it done, printed it on fancy photo paper (0-0 makes such a difference! i had no idea)

and met her on the bus at university to hand over the final product. (reminded me of a drug trade actually ;D HAHAHAHAHAHA…im awesome)

She ended up paying me for it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 0-0 even though i told her several times she did not have to, my friend told me she wanted to support the arts ๐Ÿ˜‰ LOL (funny, since she herself is an artist)

QUIZ TIME FAITHFUL READERS? what could this possibley have to do with my list?

Image

Thats right! “Sell a painting”!!!

Okay, well, it was not an actual painting, it is technically graphic art since i made it on my computer. BUT for an artist, thats pretty damn good and I plan on taking a picture of myself with the $10 bill, aka my first ever revenue. HAHA. I SHOULD FRAME THAT SUCKER.

And if my friend was not so insistant on paying me…it would never have happend.

Which is probably why I havent sold anything else before now. I just give shit away ;D HAHA

but ooooh the karmic rewards i will one day recieve!!!!!!!!

XOXOXOXOXOXOX

TheRichLittleArtist

Aside

Cupcake Cannibalism is a Tasty Death.

24 Apr

I have been eating so much junk lately that i think that i might be turning into a cupcake :/

…wait…is that a bad thing or a good thing?

Image

I am starting to get in the swing of things again when it comes to reading my scriptures!ย HUZZAH.

My bucket list stuff hasnt been going as smoothly as planned :C I have not had an opportunity to get to doing anything really…maybe i will work on page 2 of my comic tonight…that might be a good plan.

Image

I AM technically volunteering tomarrow ๐Ÿ˜€ although it is for my workplace again so I do not really count it. However, my next blood donation appointment is on the 1st of may (great way to start the month :D) So i am hoping i will be able to muster up the courage to ask if they are looking for volunteers :)!!! Two birds with one stone! HAHA

Also, i HAVE BEGUN WORKING ON A PAINTING SERIES ๐Ÿ˜€ Which falls under “Sell a painting” (or at least thats how i see it). I am hoping to get enough pieces together to be able to have my own gallery exhibition at the arts council in the next city over (i work for the one here, so it would be a conflict of interest).

The subject i am doing it on is craving and torture based on our lusting addiction to food. (as we all know by now…I have a serious problem with LOLZ)

>:D trust me its pretty damn evil.

…I should probably get to painting my bucket list stuff too come to think of it…oops….

I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW. I have this horrible habit of starting to much at one time. This is exactly why I NEVER finish anything and exactly why this list is absolutely necessary to improve my life…if…ya know..i actually finish it. HAHA. oi.

Drowning in half complete projects.

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

TheHappyLittleArtist

Maybe If There is Progress, There Will Be Confetti :o

13 Apr

Greetings possible stalkers!

SUMMER HAS ARRIVED and the weather has been glorious!!!!!!!

I have completed my finals and am looking forward to more bucketlist activities! I really lucked out this semester, my prof was sick on the day of our final critiques (which is like the art students version of an exam, except you have to stand up in front of your peers and fight tooth and nail in defence of your work for 20 minutes), so I DIDNT HAVE TO DO IT. BREW HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

And yes, I actually went “brewhahahahaha” and danced like a moron to the amusement of my classmates.

Then, i proceeded to write things like “YAY” on the white board and dash off with a friend to buy 10 loaves of bread.

Yup. My life in a nutshell right there. ๐Ÿ˜‰

On the religious front…I have not been able to go to church unfortunately. My amazing workplace of amazingness has needed me to work full weekend shifts. WHICH I ADOOOORE TO NO END, especially during the summer when we are busiest. I love to meet and talk to new people about art and help to support our local talent. I am OVERLY passionate about it, some people I come across even notice how into it I am. HAHA….I hope thats a good thing…XD (crazyobsessedpersontype)

My scriptureย study, unfortunately has been lacking…and as for resisting the ambrosia which is coffee…does coffee crisp count? If so…I BLAME THE EASTER BUNNY.

Image

Last Saturday the missionaries visited my work again :). Once again while my trainee was unable to make it…i think she’s starting to think they dont exist. LOL.
They were funny, lining up to listen to an audio piece we have about the sexuality of fast food advertissing. HAHA. Unfortunately we got busy really fast and they left fairly quickely, probably so as to not feel as though they were bothering me at work lol. Which they never do, they are the only bit of church I get lately XD. Oi.

Moving on, i mentioned last post that i was able to take part in an arts rally/rock concert type thing. It was partially put on by my amazing painting teacher and she encouraged us all to take part by writing poems and attending. It was allot of fun but unfortunately it was held outside on the green…in freezing weather. Allot of people showed up and I was surprised by how many passer by’s stopped to listen on their way to class. We are not a very social university…but…that could be said for the entire town really…

What else, what else? It has been so long since i have updated you all I feel a little perplexed with going ons! HAHA

I have not seen my friends in a very long time. THEY HAVE ABANDONED ME >:C
I KNOW AT LEAST ONE OF YOU MUST READ THIS.
Oh well. Haters gonna hate. >:C

ย Image

Bucketlist wise, I have started page 2 today of my comic book and am trying to get people to go roller blading with me before our coastal weather decides it no longer wants to stay decent for me.

Also, I am attempting to get a group together to visit our local carnival type thing we have here called “Playland”. It has changed allot since I was last there, way back in grade 7 and I have been attempting to plan the trip for several years now. However, my friends hate fun and are not very accomodating to my needs (OBVIOUSLY ๐Ÿ˜‰ ). HAHA. Maybe now with my bucketlist and all the amazing support they have been giving me as i try to cross off more stuff, we will make it. I hope so ๐Ÿ˜€ I love arcade games. HURRAY FOR PROGRESS.

ย And with that I think you are pretty much all caught up.

It is weird to think that it has been one entire month since my cat passed away :C
It still feels like it only just happend. weird.

ANYWAYS have a happy Friday the 13th ;D (again…did you know we also had one this january???? SPOOOOKY)

Stay Lucky

XoXoXo

TheHappyLittleArtist

Aside

Pft, Productivity is for Cthulhu’s

21 Mar

I DONT HAVE TO DO A MURAL PRINT.

Life goal in ultimate lazy achievment. COMPLETE. Take that productive society!!!!

Oh…why hello their faithful viewers ๐Ÿ˜€ nice to see there are so many of you. I am sure you are wondering “what the cthulhuย is this kid talking about?”

Image

BEER FOR EVERYONE!!!!

Well, as you know by now, I am in an upper level Photo 4 class at my university (Film, not digital) and one of the requirments for the year was to print a 30″x40″ mounted mural print. The very thought of having to buy that much photosensitive paper made me cry…along with the 8 hours it would have taken to develop that beast. ECK.

*Ahem* Moving on….

I did my usual routine got up at 6am (slept in an hour. i DESERVED IT), did my workout, showed, drank my tea, and read my scriptures (as part of bucketlist item one’s requirement ๐Ÿ™‚ ) and went to my photo class.

Then I went home and decorated my cats grave some more. I THINK THIS IS COMPLETELY HEALTHY…..shutup internet.

Image

Doesnt it look pretty?

Not much on the bucketlist happend unfortunately :/

But what I have been working on the most ย is finding an opportunity to volunteer.

I would prefer if it was for a good cause, rather than just for a need for extra hands at a hockey event.

I did have something lined up with the epilepsy society but the EXACT day I was going to hand in my volunteer sheet my cat died and I fell into hopeless despair (which has now apparently turned into a hopeless obsession with garden aesthetics lol)

Maybe i will try the SPCA. ๐Ÿ˜€ I HAVE always wanted to do that, but I know that they demand allot more of you than just a weeks worth of good deeds. In fact, its something like a 3 month commitment, so perhaps in the summer if the positions dont fill up to fast. Any thoughts?

OH, I FORGOT. I did do some more bucketlist documentingย last night, aka slightly worked on my painting of my church. But not enough that it would be a noticable difference for me to warrant posting a picture of it.

At the time I WAS attempting to do the homework that is due tomarrow….but instead sat for 4 hours in my studio, productively staring at a wall and then moved onto poking at my bucketlist painting for a good…5 minutes. BUT IT COUNTS!!!!

Which reminds me…I should get to my homework.

Off to stare at the walls some more! TTYL

TheHappyLittleArtist


Flash, Flash, Flash Goes The Camera. Document ALL THE THINGS

16 Mar

It was a rough emotional roller coaster last night, I ended up crying until 6am and finally fell asleep at about 7am then woke up today at 12:30, I kept thinking the rain outside was the sound of her drinking from her water bowl that I used to keep in my room.

Anyways once i got up I did my usual exercises, shower and forced myself to eat something. I realized I hadn’t really eaten much of anything but a salad in class yesterday. No appetite I guess. Then instead of tea I pulled out a bottle of Coke Zero, which I usually reserve for much needed on the job caffination (since I gave up Coffee its been a real life saver). I may have another one, even though I should save them for this weekends shift.

This whole thing is only just starting to hit me hard, dad had to physically stop me from bolting out into the rain to dig her up. I don’t like the idea of my baby outside alone in the dark ๐Ÿ˜ฆ and to top it all off it is also the 15th anniversary of my moms death today. WOW. What a week.

I will try to read my scriptures again today but since she died I have been slacking and I know it.

On a happy note, people are being pleasantly receptive to my bucket list when they read my blog ๐Ÿ™‚ and have even been suggesting ways to help me cross off more things! Like dance lessons over by my university, which will be a test for both “Learn to dance” and “over coming social anxiety” DUNDUNDUUUUN. Committing to things is always the hardest. I need to learn to breeeeeathe and relax. HAHA.

I will keep you informed on the dancing, but for now let us move on tooooo *Drum roll*Image

Ongoing: “Document Bucket list Experiences” and “Overcome Social Anxiety”

ย  ย  ย  ย  ย I kinda figured we would start at the top and work our way down through the ongoings, since their progress comes and goes with whatever I am doing at the time.

First off, what is anย Ongoing project to me in relation to this list?

Well, its pretty straight forward. These are things I want to do (or probably should do for my own mental well being) that are either difficult to determine the readiness or completion, or may take an undetermined amount of time to complete. In this case we are looking at Documenting and overcoming social anxiety.

Documenting has always been a VERY important part of my life (and if you know me, you are most likely very irritated by it. BUT ONE DAY YOU WILL THANK ME.)

Image

Surprisingly, the only painful part of giving blood was when they pricked my finger for the iron test. They could at least of had some hello kitty band-aids...Just saying, just sayin.

By documenting, I am talking about taking pictures, videos, blogging my experiences and (like every self respecting HappyLittleArtist should) started a series of paintings to reflect my accomplishments…well, actually, calling it a series is jumping the gun just a little bit. Considering that I have only STARTED one….we shall see, we shall see.

Image

A painting for the first thing I checked off (get baptised) its still a work in progress :/ DON'T JUDGE ME. lol

Lastly, I wanted to talk about overcoming my social anxiety.ย 

Many people outside of my friends don’t realize how badly I suffer from this HAHA. I am pretty sneaky with my ninja tactics and hiding the fact that I really avoid doing anything social. I DO. NOT. LIKE. CROWDS. Or anything/anyone new. (probably why i have not as of yet, joined my church’s youth group, FOREVER ALONE ๐Ÿ˜‰ ). When I started working on this I saw the group (more like family really <3) I frequent most with (and by most I mean usually only 3 times a year, yup its that bad HA) TWICE in one week. Needless to say, I think a few jaws dropped. Thus far we have gone mini golfing at the local games place, hung out at, what i like to consider, our club house (aka their acreage) AND I EVEN DID SOMETHING SPONTANEOUS (I am a plan ahead, no surprises type of person). A very good friend of mine (whom i had theย pineappleย dream about LOL) was randomly in town and I have been DIEING TO SEE HIM FOREVER. So, even though i was in the middle of an essay, it was 10pm at night (with school the next day) and I had no makeup on (ACK!!!! THE HORROR) I hopped in the mustang and we went off for a joy ride! Not surprisingly it was a blast ๐Ÿ™‚ (even did some more mini golfing). Also, i recently went to a career fair at school with an amazing classmate I know. ๐Ÿ™‚ she is awesome and I am really loving getting to know her. I feel as though she is helping push me along into social activities and university events i would never have considered before. I have even been to the on campus restaurant in between the two of us (and her hilarious boy toy) working on a photography project. There is not enough gratitude in the world to express to her at this moment, though I really should try.

Needless to say, this will absolutely be the hardest of my bucket list items to complete and it is not exactly clear on when or if I will ever be able to honestly cross it off. However, its important for me to try. I have come to realize that I cannot spend my entire life sitting at home alone watching Futurama and drinking Coke Zero in the dark. it did not make me happy and I felt like i have wasted half my life regretting the things I said i couldnt do, just because i was to scared to go out and socialize. So, I see this as an ongoing process, trying to breakthrough my tough exterior of mistrust and anxiety towards the outside world. This could very well be one of the more important aspects of this project that I will be working on.

Step one: Hang out more with the friends I have held for over a decade.

Step two: Hang out with more recent friends

Step three: Hang out with strangers/possible friends (*cringespasmdies*) <—-LETS LEAVE THIS FOR LAST? *scaaaaared* lol

ย 

I really hope my writing isnt to atrocious this time around. XD HAHA

Forever Changing (Hopefully for the better)

LUUUUUURV

TheHappyLittleArtist :3

Sleep Tight Furry Lover

14 Mar

ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  So last night after i wrote my blog (March 13, 2012 at 10:30pm) I watched my beautiful 20 year old manx kitty as her breathing slowed. I was petting her soft fuzzy fur as she gasped and passed away out of my life forever. I had to ask over 100 times for my dad to make sure she had died. “Are you sure shes dead?” he was surprisingly patient about it. Usually, we are not patient people and fight constantly.

I am devastated but so thankful i was able to grow old with such an amazing little spirit. She literally saved my life on more than one occassion when i was young and ready to end it all and when my mother passed away and she seemed to willingly take the role as my mama kitty. Which is still how i see her, it is literally like losing a parent all over again.

I surprisingly slept well last night and dreamed that she was irritatingly scratching at my keyboard until i woke up and saw that she was not there. Having cried so much at the time she left us, i thought i had run out of tears until this morning as the shock hit me again and a fresh wave of tears welled up.

If you have never had a pet you probably think i am being ridiculous.

But having Pickles literally made me who i am today and i know life wont be the same. Will i ever have another cat? Not any time soon. But if i do, they will absolutely be an adopted adult or senior in age. (the least likely to be adopted).

Needless to say i have been binging all afternoon. Which, if you know me is a huuuuuge mistake as i am sugar/wheat/glucose intolerent….at this moment, i am so stiff and swollen i can barely type.

Having indulged in 1 large box of truffles, 2 egg white omlettes, 1 bowl of veggie ramen (i wish they would make a spicy variety for vegatareans ๐Ÿ˜ฆ ) and 17 cups of hot chocolate. AND YES. IT HAD TINY MARSHMELLOWS….and yes…I picked out as many marshmellows from the jar as I could (like a boss) so my cup would have more than its fair share.

I didnt even go to school today. I just couldnt.

I dont think i have missed a class of any kind in 4 or more years. Even when i have a hospital worthy fever, or the time i split open my hand (13 stitches) and still went and did my plaster project.

That alone is a testament to my sorrow.

Last night i was smart enough to know to hide away all her toys (so many) as it is to soon for me to be reminded of her.

Due to the snow fall here today i am unsure if we can bury her this evening as planned :C will the ground be to frozen? I dont know. I hope not. When my dad told me he put her (in a fancy box) in the garage until the funeral all i could say to myself, alone in the house was “my babies in the garage….my babies in the GARAGE.

My friends are amazing. I am so stunned and touched by how many people have sent their thoughts out to me and by my friend from class who noticed my absence.

Thank you everyone for being so kind even if you may be one of those people who dont understand the tragedy of the loss of a pet.

And to those who have always said as Pickles health declined over the years “we are here for you when she goes” and I would answer “despite her deafness, her arthritis and her inabilitie to eat solids, i refuse to believe she would ever leave me.”
Thank you for trying to force me into reality in preperation none the less. I know. I am a damn stubborn person.

Now, I am off to binge on some more mini marshmellows.

I will try to make it to my class tomarrow despite the stiffness and inability to bend my knees in the morning due to eating all this crap.

Lovelovelove

TheGrievingHappyLittleArtist

P.S. I will continue filling you in on the bucketlist on another blog. TTFN..